One of the greatest escapes I have in life is writing. Writing down my innermost thoughts and deepest feelings without having to actually disclose them to others is, in a sense, medicinal. It allows me to express myself while still holding on to some control that one loses in the process of being transparent. Words are my outlet, my release. Writing is my passion, but it is rare that I share my work with others. I tend to shy away from verbally expressing my thoughts and emotions for the fact that I have a fear of being vulnerable with others. When I put the pen to the paper, I enter a serene place, and I find comfort in knowing that I can't be limited or judged by those words that I've written down. But people, unlike paper, can indeed judge and criticize you and that was a reality I wasn't quite ready to face.
I've been wanting to start my own blog for a very long time, but, as previously stated, fear always held me back. Now, I'm slowly beginning to understand words and their significance, as well as the power of relativity, representation, and testimony. A part of why I decided to share my work was because of my upbringing in church. Growing up constantly hearing others testify about God's work is soothing to me. It's encouraging. It's reassuring. It has the power to heal.
Why exactly did I choose 'Lex Therapy'? I chose it for so many reasons. I believe that names are very significant in the sense that people really do personify the meaning of their names. One of my favorite things about my name is there's so many possibilities for a clever play on words. Even with all of these possibilities, I battled with trying to find a name that had a very significant meaning for quite some time. Then one day it quite literally just came to me. In the process of discussing the plans I have for my life, I realized that every last goal I have leads to the service of others. I want to help people in any way that I can.
A·lex·is ah-LEK-sis 1. helper of mankind 2. defender or protector
Ther·a·py THerəpē noun 1. the treatment of disease or disorders, as by some remedial, rehabilitating, or curative process. 2. a curative power or quality. 3. any act, hobby, task, program, etc., that relieves tension.
The minute it entered my head, I knew it was the perfect name for my blog. The combination of the words 'Lex', meaning "the helper of mankind" and 'therapy', meaning "any act, hobby, or task that relieves tension" completely embodied who am I, who I want to be, and what I want to do. I am Alexis (Lex), I want to be a relief (therapy), and I want to help others heal by sharing my experiences and encouraging them to share their experiences as well: Lex Therapy.
I'm beginning a very critical point of my life. A point that will surely determine how the rest of my life will be lived... and for the first time I can admit that I am legitimately terrified. In the very recent past, getting me to share my work, whether it be research papers, free-lance journals or poetry, was like pulling teeth. Being open is something I have never been good at, but I've come to understand that you never know who you could guide, inspire, or restore just by sharing your story, whether good or bad. I'm in love with the stage of life I'm entering. And I know in my heart that God has provided me with the peace of mind, as well as the confidence in my abilities and in my work, thus leading to me to share it with you all.
I truly believe that God has provided me with my purpose. Though it may have been staring me dead in the face all along, I'm just beginning to realize it now because I've been living for His will instead of my own. By combining my knowledge, talents, and life goals, God has revealed to me that my life's purpose is to help others take the fear out of sharing their message. That message could come about through song, words, community service, your profession, or just by how you choose to live your life.
So, I thank you, in advance for your love, support, and inspiration as I continue on this daily lesson on self-discovery and self-love. I pray that God is able to use me as a vessel to own my story, ultimately helping and healing someone else along the way.